To the man I…

This post is for the man I… He in his cuteness, requested me to comment on something he devised. Here it goes dear.

In my mind, the key to any major change or development in a community's political condition is the willingness of all those concerned to partake in the many processes that will allow change. The change, whether incited by the elect or the people should be beneficial for everyone, with little or no loses, with litttle or no negative effect to anyone whatsoever. The people empowered to do the leading on the otherhand, should always reflect the will of the populace in doing such things. The lack of any of these things stated above, in my opinion, would lead to the failure or poor performance of any community project.

I know, these Ideas are quite grand but at least I've shared my view on how our student government should be. The biggest hurdle in your plan is the people itself. You and your entire team should make up something that would interest the students to participate in school activities just for the plain fun of it. Things must also be done in motivating the body to have not only a sense of nationalism but a sense of UP community identity. Once these grand, yet still possible conditions are met, executing your plan should be quite easy.

I hope I've been helpful to you dear.

Brain Dump

There is as certain futility in constantly philosophizing about life when you're trying to have one yourself. All the constant mucking about in your head about why there's life and existence in the first place wastes alot of your own life. It eats up alot of time, making you lose the time you need for your own personal happiness. This is how I am. It does waste my time and my life. I am kind of happy though.

The whole slosh of thinking up reasons to life and existence made me lose alot of things. In the flurry of my thoughts my grades went down. The madness and stress of this self-imposed burden made me lose my will to exercise making me fat. It has, in the bigger sense of things made me alot worse instead of making me an overall better person. It has however, made me wiser.

Despite the crazyness, it allowed me to develop a calm, a zen even, of concentration and deep thought. This allows me in turn to further analyze my problems, attempt to solve it, and cope with the other horrifying things that plague me. Forgive me for holding a candle to myself but, without this self-pronounced talent to hold my self-esteem together, I would probably get a knife and stab myself, multiple times, to death.

The whole lot of philosophizing began when I had a severe bout with paranoia regarding a disease I shall never think of again. I never had it, and hope never will, but I thought I did because I'm that crazy. Anyway, since I thought I was going to die, I started thinking about everything. And I mean everything. I buried this past but I believe the burial brought a couple aspects of me with it. It killed my lust for tomorrow. It killed my lust for more gadgets. It killed my drive to do anything. It basically killed my passion and hopes about the future. It made my dreams die.

I now live for today. I live for that day with my friends and my family. I live for that day knowing I did a good job. I live for that day knowing that I did something good for someone else. I live for that day when I feel simply happy and content with the life I have now. Dreams and goals will be fulfilled one day, I hope. I guess, for as long as I live a day to its best, those things will be fulfilled. Paranoia and thinking way too much killed alot of my passion, but it has rooted me. It made me grounded, easing out my mind into a solid path despite the fucked-up nature of my head.

Passion and a whole lot of stuff will have to be revived soon since I realize it will make whatever remains of my life interesting, or at least worth while. The period when my heart just went dead sucks ass and I don't want that to ever happen again. To avoid this, I need to find new reasons as why I should continue living in the hopes it would restore my passion for life. This bit and my recent experiences with a few special someones made me happy as of late and I do hope this goes on.

The path to a normal, well-adjusted self, especially when starting really crazy, is riddled with strange or at least stressing things that any level-headed human mind can go without. The part of that path you just read now can be visualized as this. It can be pictured as someone looking at a video of himself watching a video of himself, where himself is pondering about stuff that can potentially make himself go zonkers.